Saturday, September 26, 2009

Youngsters!!

By looking at the title, i know i am OLD, but no complain because this is life, everybody grows older day by day, second by second, and well people may wish to be wiser too when older. today i met this interesting lady, a young lady ( ok ok, i am contrasting it like i am really really that old!!!), she was sitting beside me and she was friendly, she turned to me and we started a conversation which went like this : YL-young lady; WL-wai ling



YL: Hi, my name is xxxx, what is yours?



WL: Hi, i am wai ling, nice to meet u..



(in btw there were some questions which were not so important, and then...)



YL: where do u stay?



WL: pandan indah, cheras



YL (innocently): i thought that area is full of chinese and the chinese there are REALLY



"CHINESEE"!! (as in they cannot speak english la), how come ur english is so fluent?? (well only this

sentence itself she's got gramatical mistake)



WL (looked at her in the way that dunno whether to laugh or cry): o...it is because of my family (didn't wanna explain that much).



YL: o...me too, i am from eng speaking family, i stay in damansara and u know (this is the gist of the whole conversation) there are a lot of "BANANAS" there, a lot of chinese cannot speak mandarin, we speak english even with friends and family. (DAMN, AND U SHOULD HAVE SEEN THE SMUG ON HER FACE, SHE'S SO DAMN PROUD!! ) do u speak chinese? (wanted to correct her, chinese is not a language but didn't have the heart to because she was so proud)



WL: yeah i do, i came from a chinese independent high school (now it's my turn to be proud) *wink*.



~conversation ends~



This is the "trend" nowadays, youngsters, especially chinese youngsters in malaysia who are so proud to be BANANAS. Why is there a term like this for chinese who don't know chinese? when u look at the fruit itself, the skin of the banana is yellow and the fruit within ( it represents the culture and personality of a person) is white, hence the term "banana".



English is really important, without which, we might seem lacking in job interviews, we might not be able to keep up with the current issues happening all around the globe, but come on, it is just a language, just like any other language, but the western countries have made it so important and the impact on the people is so great that most in Malaysia might think english is their mother tongue instead. this is sad, i do not blame the young lady, as she's brought up this way, but when a person does not know his "root", he is merely a body without a soul and everything that makes up his way of thinking is just not himself.

There's a chinese proverb and pardon me if the translation seems absurd, it definitely will be absurd because this is the lacking of english language, in chinese, a few words express anything and everything, but u have to try so much harder in english, the proverb is "falling leaves return to its roots(落叶归根)", it signifies that no matter how tall or how great the leave seems to be on top of the tree, it will go back to its roots one day. No matter how "un-chinese" u think u r, at the end of the day, u can never runaway from your birth certificate and more importantly, ur skin colour and facial features ;) i know i am mean....:P

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Pulau Ketam












A fabulous outing with my family to pulau ketam where we lavished on seafood and indulged in the serene atmosphere there. I am really is happy that after such a long time, we r going on a trip, all together, as a family..again. I love my family more than anything else in the world, when we were on the ferry, me and my sis talked about this guy who's kinda cute, but she said he looked good only from the side view, well, typical jing ling, nothing is good enough for her but she's still my dearest sister. My brother is the protector of the girls in the family, and i am proud to have him as my beloved brother and he remains the heart of the family. Parents are loving as usual and the whole picture of the family is just too sweet and kind, maybe something which i haven't experienced for such a long time. I've spent my life running away from myself and occasionally, from my family, and this is wrong. They are the ones i've got and i will have them for the rest of my life, no running away. Pulau Ketam is such a small and peaceful "kampung" that everything seemed so simple there, i was thinking, life could be this way too, everything could be made simpler, no complexity, well it is not hard to do so but it is in our mind. These few days were spent in such a simple and relaxing way that i forgot how i was living in the life that i used to live. I've decided to spend most of my time with my family because i know soon, we might all go different directions. My life has changed and i owe my thank to my family and 2 friends in particular, u know who u r ;P and i could never have made up my mind to change my own life without the love, encouragement and constant attention from this people, the world is just beautiful, i love you my life :P!








Monday, September 14, 2009

A New Beginning !!!

The past 50 days (more or less) have been the worst for me in my life...there were times when i had to go thru hell but nothing came close to the shit that happened to me throughout these 50 days, and i am so glad it is OVER!! someone told me my blog is interesting to read (hooray...) and the very same person encouraged me to go on writing..because there are still some people out there who would want to know what's going on with my life, although some just dun really bother...life's like this for everyone i guess. I've started my college (i know it took me years and i am still doing it) and looking for a new job now, got a couple of interviews to attend this week. I wanna make a difference this time, and i found out one single good thing about blogging, as a matter of fact i did not touch this website for weeks until last night and when i was reading it, it shocked me how i've changed, in small ways, from the person i used to be weeks ago, it's just funny, i guess humans change everyday, well not that visible changes of course, but no doubt, everyone changes to survive, our body temp changes, our mood changes, emotion changes and lots of other things. I dunno what i'm writing about because honestly, i am not in the mood to write about good stuff, at all, i was depressed and still am, well a little, but i wanted to do this for a friend, the one who has asked me to leave all my past behind and turn a new leaf, i am thankful to u. nobody can just leave their past behind like that, it needs time, it takes time, perhaps i will take a little bit longer this time but it is ok, i will be fine. it is always easier to say than do, i wish human brains, or at least my brains are like format-able memories in laptop, a limit imposed on it and we can restore or delete any part of it, if i could, i'd want to delete what had been happening with me for the past 3 years. i never regretted all the heartaches and pains, because as another dear person told me, it made me understood what life was all about, and i got to meet some super duper cool people, u know who u r, yes, it's u!!! and i'd like to end this by saying it is a new beginning mate, so party on, make a resolution and stick to it, have fun in life, stay cool and all your sadness will go away one day......i hope.....