This Is It by MJ (R.I.P)

When i first heard mom saying: " we're going for MJ's movie this sat, i've bought the tickets, so make urself available." I was like "isn't it enuff already, no disrespect but let's move on, let him move on and we should move on too" Anyway before going for the movie i almost wanted to back out but i didn't have the heart to tell my mom so. I googled on the internet(and yes fyi i can use google)and started reading the preliminary of the movie, basically it's just about the "This Is It" concert which MJ was supposed to perform around the world before his death, the movie is a compilation of dancing rehearsals, the casting of dancers, MJ vocal training etc, the opening was well....earnest..a few dancers talking about how happy they were to work with MJ and some of them even cried, but at that moment when u looked at their expression, u knew that MJ was larger than life to them, even to millions of others. Listening to some of the old songs of MJ like "earth song", "they don't care about us", "Billy Jean" and others was like walking down the memory lane, not only that u remember the songs and the music videos, it brought back a lot of my own memories to me, and mind u, he sang those songs live, that's the awesome part, u actually heard him singing during the rehearsal for the concert and i have to admit this, his voice sounded like an angel, to me, at least :) i felt good about myself when i was watching the documentary, suddenly i felt that nothing could really harm me, i have my whole life to fall back to if anything happens, i am not sure how many of u understands that feeling, but it feels nice to be able to fall back to your life, unlike falling back to a person, whom u might not be able to trust all the time, but your own life, it's like yourself, except your own action and inaction shapes the way it looks, but it belongs to you, it is yours, nobody can take that away from you, it doesn't matter if it will turn out right in the future, but at one point, the point where u start pondering about it, it is yours. I figured i really did not need anyone else other than my own family, and myself, I was born alone and i've come this far alone, y do i need anyone to make me happy? i will be happy if i want to be, regardless of who i have and who i don't. Perhaps inner peace is really all about self-reliance, i dunno. Coming back to the documentary, MJ was presented as himself, u know there are a lot of corny hollywood stars trying to make a real-life documentary about themselves and they are even faker than the hollywood movies itself. well i might be biased but i guess MJ couldn't have guessed that the footage would be made into a movie, so my assumption....he was really himself in the footage, and i admire him. He was like a friend to everybody, that down-to-earth, that humble, he had this magnetic charm that everybody wanted to get closer to him, to hear what he said, to just sit there and listen to him singing. A person with such great talent, but nobody was intimidated, and throughout his rehearsal, he mouthed this several times and i think it's really sweet "god bless u" to several of his dancers and co-workers, through MJ, u see an un-tainted star, u see someone as pure as water, someone who has not had a better life than all of us had (although he definitely had much much more money and fame :P), and yet persevered and stood at the mountain top, even when scandals had brought him down. I should stop writing about MJ, because i can go on and on, let him rest in peace. I love you Michael Jackson :D