The Truth

It's been a long time, i've had a series of unfortunate events and well am not here to actually talk about them, i just wanna talk about how the world looks different to me after all these "mishaps". First off, when u have troubles, when you seem to lose your sanity after walking on the edge for too long, when you KNOW it that nobody could really understand, you are right, nobody could. It does not matter what somebody told u before, because it was before all your problems, it was before all the troubles, it was before you lost yourself. I have this friend who I really thought a world of, someone who i could never foresee would just hide himself from me when i was in trouble, proved me wrong!! The reason?? he wanted to "heal" me, he wanted to let me stand on my own 2 feet, wanted me to be who i used to be again. It is always easy to just "heal" someone by words, it is always easy to keep telling the person how much i wanted to help and whatever i did, i did it for your welfare (by ignoring what i said and not keeping in touch), i wanted u to learn something and realize your mistake. Damn, if words could help, there would be no war and no fights in this world. The reality is, he's running away, either from me or from himself or from both. It is too tough to keep this friendship, i am trying to simplify my world now, not complicating stuff and not be judgmental anymore, i think i am gonna let this go, come what may, i am not a rug that when you feel like talking to me, u talk, and when u dun, well u give me i-am-trying-to-let-u-heal-urself shit, I am not gonna let anybody walk all over me because i am not a door mat. When you have problems, you come to me, you share your problems, i'm happy to listen to you and give u appropriate solutions if i could, but when i share mine, well it seems too much for u to bear and at the end of the day u start judging me, it's hurtful to start a sentence this way "to me right now, you are *like this and like that*" i dun need anyone to tell me what kind of person i am, i've been living with myself for the past 24 years, i best know what attitude i have.

Start running away, because i honestly do not care about anyone else anymore except for some friends who really do care, whatever mistake i've done in the past, they r experiences which are all mine to learn, u have no right in it and definitely not helping me to cope better, u r just selfish, that's all i can say....